I'm not going far--just downtown Ottawa, where I'll be staying at the very cool Hotel Indigo--but this is a first. I realized recently that I have never done anything like this. I've traveled on my own, but always heading towards a person I was visiting. I have never taken time to be alone, for the purposes of leisure, away from the dubious respite of my messy house.
I have taken partners to hotels or inns for downtime; indeed, I am a huge proponent of mini stay-cations, and recommend everyone takes one from time to time with their sweetie. But it just never really occurred to me before to give myself that same TLC, all on my own. Of course, it's been a while since I was single, but I don't think a person should have to be single to do this. Solitary time, especially for us introverts, is crucial. When one is mated with another human, that time becomes even more scarce; maybe it's important to reclaim it.
I'm not sure how it's going to feel to do this. I'm nervous, to be honest; my goal is to spend the time *alone*, not chatting on the phone or on google chat. I'm going to paint my toenails, tweeze my eyebrows, and go to dinner. I'm going to watch whatever movies I want, and in the morning I'm going to head down to the Byward Market for some bread and treats. I will decide what I want to do and when I want to do it, all on my own--no compromising, group planning, or negotiating. I will be at the mercy of my own whim.
It's kind of scary, though I don't know why.
You can follow my tweets at @girlcrafted with hashtag #jordantime and there'll be a blog post after the stay. Or possibly during it, if I'm lonely for the sound of my own 'voice'.